vulnerability

Like, no joke, rolling around on the floor WRESTLED with this thing called vul-ner-a-bil-ity

I have defended myself against the defense mechanism inherent in vulnerability.

I have hidden from it, cajoled it, loved it, hated it, abandoned it, given it too much attention in the landscape of my life, I have indulged in it, I have locked it in the kitchen cupboard for fear it would annihilate me.

Sometimes I have even asked it what it needs, or taken it for a walk, or placed it at the center of m…